As I contemplate my current employment situation, I realize it is time for a change. I went back to school to work on food policy and advocacy. In my current employment state, I commute by bike an hour in the morning and an hour and a half if I go all the way home in the evening. As of late I have not been going home, but stopping at my significant other’s place and crashing. Working 10-12 hour days is not really bike commuting friendly. Some of my co-workers point out this is my choice, which it is. However, it was my choice to bike and work 8 hour days. I have not been able to do anything in the evenings for the past month.
Every year my supervisor goes on vacation. We get stupid busy and highly overworked. I have not really been happy for some time. I think if my lab were closer to home and downtown, I might not feel this way. Surely, I digress. The point is that I am needing to move forward.
I discovered that my passion for food policy outweighs my need for my current paycheck. Not to say I do not need or wish to be paid, but that to change my situation I must be willing to endure hardship. I have found a position that is probably lower wage than mine, less structured hours and probably more weekend and night work. The upside is that I can see the potential of this position and I can see being able to transfer to other states and it gets me into food advocacy and policy. I am feeling genuinely confident that this is the right route to take.
I have stayed with my company for 8 years. Every year this intolerable situation occurs. I do not hate my job, but I have lost my passion for it. I am at that burn out stage and it is time to move forward. I am a huge advocate for change, but the first step is always the hardest. I am embracing the challenge. I look forward to the next step.