I swore the last relationship was it. Never again. Then I met this most unique and caring man. We had our issues, most relationships do. I realized after being with him, that i had never actually love anyone before. I grew emotionally. I enjoyed him so much. I wanted to spend all my free time with him. I was so happy with him.
We have come to an canyon. We apparently cannot find common ground. I am so hurt and torn over the whole situation. I didn’t want it to ever end. I truly thought he was perfect for me, and I for him. Now that it has come to an end, I am sad. Yet I know that I cannot continue the way things were, so time to move on. I am struggling in many places in my life, this is not a great time for this to happen. I am now seriously seeking new locations to live and new employment.
Change can be very cleansing. I feel as though I have done everything I can really do here. I am now motivated with greater intensity about moving out and moving on then I have been in the past. I wish him well. I am angry, but more about why it happened, than what actually happened. No actually I am angry that he never acknowledged that he might have hurt me. Sweeping it under the carpet is the last thing I would have done, but I am not him.
As for me, I will engage into many more activities and hopefully connect on some new adventure. I have no ties anymore, except my old dog. Once he is gone, I can take flight and just land where I land. Maybe this is the best for me, I can embrace it as a new adventure. Maybe I will do one of those crazy bike treks across the country. Maybe I will sail around the World. One thing for certain I have no ties, no regrets.