Fall Comfort Salad


I wish I had taken step by step pictures, I am sorry, I will try to remember next time.  Actually it had not occurred to me to even share a recipe until I sat down to lunch and my partner, who had sausage and tater tots cooked in bacon grease, said oh wow that salad looks really tasty.  I knew I had to share if his bacon fat drenched tater tots left him with food envy!

Early this morning I prepared a miso dressing.  It is basically the following ingredients, shaken hard until mixed in a small jar.

Miso paste, about 2 tbs

Rice Wine Vinegar about 3tbs

Soy sauce 1tsp, do not overpower the miso.

minced garlic, 2 cloves (for good measure)

Olive oil infused with ghost peppers, did not smell so spicy but it has a kick.  Olive oil to Rice wine Vinegar= 1/3  Always use more acid than oil.

As you shake this you will sometimes notice it gets pasty and thick like peanut butter.  No worries, just add  a little more vinegar and oil, ensuring that the vinegar is at a 3:1 concentration to oil.

*You can use regular olive oil or even sesame oil if you do not like spice.

 

I left that to marinate together for several hours.

I took a frozen piece of Nice crusty bread.  Any kind of glutenin  (chewy) bread works.  Sorry if you are intolerant I do not think gluten-free bread makes as good of croutons, but you can try.  I grilled it in a pan with some browned butter and cut it up as it defrosted to crisp it up.  I laid out a bet of greens and then got good and fancy!!

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Step one spiral slice carrots, I used the purple ones with the orange center.  They are just pretty to look at.

 

I chopped some celery, and sliced some cucumbers and then took scissors and cut a scallion up.  Yeah like paper cutting scissors my favorite kitchen tool these days.

I then plated up a nice bed of baby greens with plenty of spinach.  I tossed the celery and scallions randomly, but placed the carrot ribbons and cucumbers strategically.  I then added the croutons.  I also added some spicy almonds and cranberries.  The final ingredient was supposed to be millet, but I accidentally pulled couscous out of the freezer.  I heated it up quick in a pan on the stove, I do not own a microwave so when I heat stuff up it is stove top or oven reheat.

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The final touch was to drizzle the miso dressing over the salad and toss some Himalayan Pink Salt in a crystalline form.  If you have never used salt for texture, you are missing out!

Fun Food Friday: Christmas Cake


Here in Jamaica at this time of year the grocery stores and shops are bustling with energy. The baking aisle is very busy this time of year. You will find these aisle loaded with flours, sugars, baking powders and dried fruits and nuts galore. From early December you will find people stocking up on these supplies, because this is the time of year to enjoy a traditional Jamaican favorite, Christmas Cake. It is laced with rum, red wine, rehydrated fruits and every ounce of love that can be bestowed upon a cake.

This week for the employee Christmas party I was privileged to watch our staff cook prepare and bake the Christmas cake. She also made a sweet potato pudding, which I have only had a couple of times but am determined to learn how to make.
The secret to Christmas cake here is that the fruits are soaked, usually overnight, in rum and red wine. This softens them up and our cook actually blended the fruit to create a paste as some people do not like the texture of fruit pieces in their cakes.

As it was being mixed together she added liquid browning, something I bought and had no idea what to do with as it is simply for color, nothing else! (Brown Stew whatever is the only things I have knowingly seen with it used.) This substance takes it from a light brownish color to a deep rich almost chocolate cake color, which is what I thought Christmas cake was the first time I tried it.

In my whole life I have never actually tried Fruitcake. It usually has nuts in it, I hate candied fruits, and it is typically heavy like a brick and hard like a rock. I have heard many jokes about fruitcake, like you just save it to regift the next year, fortunately it was not something my mother liked and she never forced it upon us. In fact she described it pretty much as an abomination and something that should be banned for life. Having this opinion of fruitcake, I was a little hesitant to try Jamaican Christmas cake when it was offered to me. I took it out of courtesy. I mean, I can only say vegetarian to foods that contain meat to get out of trying them, cake is not made from meat!

So if you are adventurous and trust me, everything is better with rum in it, here is the recipe for Jamaican Christmas cake!!  Just remember there is no such thing as too much rum, unless you are giving this to children, then make them a less potent version.  Also soak that fruit for 24 hours to really get the flavor and the moisture in it. The other secret ingredient at least for this one is bread crumbs to add density and texture.

 

 

Looking at my mindless eating habits.


I am overweight.  Yep, I said it.  I lost 76 pounds back in 2010.  Then I got hit by a truck and life as I knew it seemed to stand still for months.  I lost all that weight by being mindful and connected to my food.  Things like urban farming and farmers market trips weekly, sometimes multiple times weekly were all part of my life.  Also I biked everywhere.  I hated paying for the bus fare so I forced myself to bike up two big hills daily to get home.  I also cut back on my alcohol and limited my processed food.  I was not only losing weight but saving a ton of money.

What happens when your whole life is turned upside down?  You lose focus, you lose energy and drive and you fall into depression.  When you are in constant pain you drink alcohol more and smoke weed far more than normally.  The fact that my partner’s housemates gave me a key code to their home did not help.  He lived half the distance that my home was.  I also could avoid hills and frankly my partner drinks daily unless he is on call.  He is what I would call a functional alcoholic.  I worry about him, but he is pleasant and not a danger to anyone so I keep my silence.

Needless to say I gained most of my weight back.  I have half heartedly tried to lose it again.  I even biked across the country thinking that in the process I would “get skinny” as a good friend put it.  Sadly on the road you eat unhealthy foods.  You are also not picky about the food you are offered, even being a vegetarian is hard on the road.  I do not know when I lost all my hope, but recently I found it again.

Knowing that I leave in 52 days has motivated me to lose at least enough to drop a pant size maybe two.  I started to focus in November and started tracking my foods.  It totally changes how you eat when you post it openly for the World to see.  I finally opened mine up so others could see it and found that I did not want anyone to see an entire bag of Doritos in my food log.  I also wanted people to see more activity than I currently had.  I bought a pedometer hoping to increase my activity.  I lost several of them.  I finally bought a digital one that directly connects to my tracking website.  I now have a goal of 6000 steps a day and 30 minutes of cardio 5 days a week.  I also try to do a short strength training session.  I started the strength training and 30 minutes of cardio two weeks ago.  I have found that I have lost 2 pounds since I started, almost three.

My new tracking device will light up and show how close I am to my goal daily.  It frustrates me to see how inactive I am, and I try to get more cardio in when I see I am struggling to get to my goal.  I tend to pull my bike out when I see that I have been far to sedentary most of my day.  The holiday season is not an ideal time to focus on food, but I did and I am glad that I did.  I may have went over my calories on certain days, but I was more aware of what I was putting in my mouth.

One thing I have noticed is that I tend to eat more when I am bored.  Since I have few friends here and I spend my days home alone, I tend to have to force myself to find something else to do besides eat.  One thing I have focused on is my food planning.  I find it a great way to spend my time, basically because I am not eating while I am planning.  I also have started planning on my wardrobe to pack for Jamaica.  The problem with this is that it costs money.

I do find that a bike ride in the middle of the day is helpful to distract me from mindlessly wasting my day.  I have found a bar down the street that I bike to and read a book, but I tend to drink while I read, it is after all, a bar.  I have found a couple of coffee shops to sit and read at, but they tend to be much farther away.  I wish I had someone to meet in Midtown and then I would enjoy biking there so much more.  Maybe I should force myself to.  I find myself less distracted when I find focus.  That is a total duh moment, but typing it out helps me see it better.

I typically avoid frozen foods.  What I have found though, is that without them I buy less produce and then I have less to munch on when I do get a craving.  In the last month I have bought a few different bags of veggies and fruit.  The fact that Richard’s girls will eat only certain veggies and mostly the kind that is frozen cemented my resolve to keep them on hand.  It has helped.  I keep certain things fresh on hand but things that are out of season are in the freezer.

I have also broken my rule about canned things.  I now keep canned organic beans on hand.  This is for me to add to a salad when I forget to make them ahead of time.  I have been experimenting with new grains and whole foods as well.  I have found several ways to enjoy quinoa.  One of my favorite is tossing it in a vinaigrette and adding cilantro and pomegranate seeds.  I found this to be quite delightful.

I still have a long way to go, but I know that I am back on track and that by the time I leave I will at least be a size smaller than I currently am.  This makes my clothing situation even better.

Holiday meals, how to beat the hell out of stress.


Christmas is really easy for me! I typically go to the movies and then out for Chinese food. Easy peasy, right! Also not so healthy. New Year’s, however is a whole other story. A few years ago I wanted to celebrate the New Year with friends in a unique way. I discovered the story of Hopping John’s! Seriously how could you not love something so simple and healthy. Eating this on New Year’s day is said to bring wealth and prosperity to you and your family. I thought it was a perfect new tradition to impart. I called a few friends, who were excited to participate. Each brought something to share, because that is how we roll in Seattle. A couple bottles of wine showed up, some really good bread and a dessert.

Hopping Johns is traditionally collard greens with black eyed peas. I had found the idea and the recipe on Post Punk Kitchen.   I found her take to be spectacular. In fact I incorporated the liquid smoke into most of my bean recipes since. Liquid smoke used to scare the crap out of me. What exactly is it? Well depending on brand it could be a chemical concoction or it could simply be smoke rehydrated in a distillation unit. I prefer the latter. What liquid smoke does for any vegetarian’s life is elevate it to amazing! Often beans are cooked with a pork hock or bacon, by using liquid smoke you get the smoking amazing taste without the fat or the pork.

I love this recipe so much that I have included it for you. I will not be able to have this meal with my friends this year, but I hope that they continue to carry on the tradition and maybe I can video chat with them. The best part about this tradition: it stays within the idea of local seasonal diet, if you use sundried or canned tomatoes.

 

Secrets to finding peace in the kitchen.


I used to hate cooking.  Actually it was the cleaning that I really hated.  My mother never allowed me to do more than the dishes in the kitchen.  When I moved out on my own, I worked in a restaurant.  This increased my distance to the kitchen.  When I did cook at home, it was typically from a box or package.  There is not skill involved in pre-prepared food.  This creates a non-satisfactory relationship with your kitchen.

For years this was how I lived and cooked.  It wasn’t until I had been a vegetarian for a few years that I figured out how to find that peace with my kitchen.  You do not need all the fancy tools, you do not need a huge kitchen.  What you do need is the feeling of satisfaction.  If you prefer to bake, then this is where you will find your peace.  I prefer to create, which is a step beyond peace.   I have a few cans of staples, but for the most part my kitchen is filled with dried beans and grains and fresh produce.

I often hear that when you have a job, cooking every night is impossible and exhausting.  Imagine riding a bike or bus for at least an hour to and from a 9.5 hour day, grabbing groceries on the way home and preparing a meal for 3 or 4.  I did it for 5 years, and I am telling you, it can be done.  Even more if you find that satisfaction in the kitchen, it can be enjoyable.  I do prepare some components ahead of time, usually on the weekends.  Things like a cream soup base, or a sauce, can be prepared ahead of time so that there is less work after a long day.

I find that searching for a new recipe at least a couple of times a month also helps.  It helps when you get excited about what you are going to prepare.  Maybe it is about avoiding a food rut, but I hardly ever make the same meals more than twice in a  month.  I also try to plan based on what I have on hand and keeping the same ingredients in a few of my meals.  This helps cut down on waste, and that also feels great.  An example is something like sour cream.  I tend to not use much so when I buy it, I try to incorporate it into several meals.  One day we might have baked potatoes as a side.  The next day we may have a Mexican theme meal.  One day we might make a quick stroganoff.  By doing this, I am able to minimize my waste.  I also like to have at least one stir fry of veggies a week.  I use up the veggies that are left over from other recipes.

One of my worst problems is the waste of fresh herbs.  Cilantro and parsley, I love them, but my partner hates them.  Putting them in randomly is not an option, so I used to find them rotting in the crisper drawer.  I found that I could make a quick Chimichurri sauce and use them up.  I use this as a salad dressing and find it to be a wonderful way to keep my herbs a few days longer.  I take whatever herbs are left over, some olive oil, lemon or lime juice, vinegar, salt, garlic and if I have some hot peppers or red pepper flakes.  Drop all the ingredients into the blender or food processor, *in a blender you need to put smaller portions of herbs in at a time.  Blend them up, adding more vinegar, olive oil and or lemon juice as needed.  Taste often, as you will want it to taste good so you will want to use it.

At the end of each week I look at the leftovers and figure out what I can create a tasty soup with.  Some leftovers are not good with others, keep that in mind.  I tend to take my leftovers for lunch or even breakfast.  There are days that making my own food is just not that interesting to me.  I take those days as recharge days.  Sometimes I go to a nice local restaurant to find a new inspiration.

My kitchen is not always my peaceful sanctuary.  Some days it drains me, those are the days I need to reboot and find my inspiration. Lately I find myself obsessed with my kitchen.  Maybe because I am not working and spend most of my days at home, maybe because it gives me a feeling of being needed.  Either way I have found that by eliminating much of my excess stuff, I have found my peace and that is amazing.  I have never kept my kitchen as clean as my current one is kept now, in fact my entire apartment is much cleaner than anyplace I have ever lived.  I think, perhaps the fact that I got rid of most things helps keep it clean.  Minimization is quite freeing and I suggest you consider it.

Thanksgiving with a twist.


For the past 5 or 6 years I have spent my Thanksgiving with the people I love the most.  Not my family, but the family I have found support in.  This year I was supposed to be in Africa, but that changed.  So I spent my first Thanksgiving away from my chosen family in Sacramento with my chosen partner in crime.  He is on call today.  This means he could have to leave at any moment for any sort of cable outage.  He cannot drink, and for us, drinking is a huge part of our holiday.  I know we are supposed to sit down and talk about all the things we are thankful for, but seriously we should be thankful every single moment of every single day!  Why set aside one day a year to show people we love them and are glad they are in our lives?

Being a vegetarian, I obviously do not eat turkey.  Being that it is just the two of us, if I made a turkey, Richard would have to consume 5 times his weight in bird goo!  I wanted to make a decadent meal.  As a person who probably should have become a chef but never realized it, I look forward to events where I am able to show off my culinary finesse.  I sometimes even make up reasons to do so!  This year was no exception, except for the fact that my kitchen is really not set up for any sort of baking.

We started off our day with my favorite, french pressed coffee and a few glasses of water.  My coffee is one of my favorite rituals.  I hand grind my beans and then put them in the french press.  I add a teaspoon of organic vanilla extract, not the imitations stuff.  I also add a teaspoon of nutmeg, cinnamon and ground cloves, I then add the water and allow it to “brew”.  I have been thinking that I might change-up my spices and try cardamom.   I then use a coconut creamer.  I savor every last drop of this magical blend and I never have to add sweetener to it.  One of my greatest joys in life is a cup of coffee as I look out my window.

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I was going to make breakfast, but that just did not really happen.  Instead I proceeded to make this Hungarian dish called a Galette.  I got the recipe from Eating Well Magazine, November/December 2014.  This was delicious and I told Richard after he ate a couple of pieces that it had chard on it.  He was surprised, he does not like chard, normally.  I thought this dish was delicious, although I did not have ricotta so I subbed in cottage cheese and used just a few teaspoons. Sometimes you have to be inventive.  I did not have a food processor or a hand mixer so I used a blender, which required some holding in the air and tipping in different directions, not something I would recommend.  Also when the dough needed to be rolled out, I used a glass jar full of flour to replace a rolling-pin. Sometimes you just use what you have.  While that was cooking I set out a bit of brie and goat cheese with crackers. I also warmed up my pumpkin dip.  This was made by roasting a very small pumpkin two days before and the night before peeling and blending it with ground cumin, salt, cayenne pepper, green onions and a couple of tablespoons of cream cheese.  It turned out brilliant!  We snacked all day on these items.

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After noon I pulled out my Sangria.   I prepared it the night before, with a bottle of red table wine, some bourbon, orange juice and some fruity limeade.  I also dropped a chopped persimmon, lemon, fresh mint and lime into the mix.  This morning I dropped an apple core from the kale salad in it and some triple sec.  Richard had the same combination without the liquor.

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Yesterday I did the unthinkable!  I beat some meat to a thin tender pulp.   Richard wanted schnitzel instead of traditional dinner.  So I picked out  a nice pork loin and I beat it down.  The funny thing is, I do not have a meat tenderizer.  I had to compromise and use a sturdy pint glass.  I must say this works very well.  Once the meat is beat down I dredged it through flour and wrapped it up in the fridge overnight.

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I cooked down some veggie broth with some shiitake mushroom bits in it for a very long time this afternoon.  This was the base for the gravy.  I cooked up some brown rice and mixed it with homemade celery soup, simply because it was what I had left over and needed to be used up.  I added green beans and portabella mushroom bits.  Richard loves green bean casserole, but I wanted to at least cut out a bunch of the preservatives.  I even made my own french fried onions for the topping.  I used regular milk instead of buttermilk and they turned out fine.  One thing I did was let them sit overnight and then put them on a cookie sheet the next day and baked them for 25 minutes at 350.  This helped dry them and crisp them up.  Sadly the rice and celery soup were too under seasoned.  I will pay attention to the flavor before I bake it next time.

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For myself I made a portabella cap in a similar fashion to the schnitzel, minus the beating it down of course.  We had decided to eat around 5, so I tried to time the food to that time.  I made a rue, with butter and flour and slowly added the broth with the mushroom bits for the gravy.  It turned out very well.  It is a bit more difficult to whisk the clumps out with bits of mushroom floating around, but if you keep the broth hot and add it slowly it seems to work well.  I put a pot of water on for the dumplings.  These are items I picked up at a German sausage maker’s shop.  You simply drop the pouch into cold water and let it stand for 10 minutes.  While that was happening I heated up some oil and took the pork out and dredged it through some egg and then through a panko bread crumb, paprika and pepper mix.  I really like to use the panko crumbs, they seem to crisp up the best.  Once the meat is breaded, I gently drop it into the oil.  I then prepare the next piece of meat.  By the time I drop the second piece of meat into the oil the first one is ready to flip.  While all this is happening the mushroom cap is on a piece of parchment paper on a cookie sheet in the oven.  I simply pull the meat off as it gets done and stick it on the pan with the mushroom.  I am very careful not to allow them to touch.  During this process I turn the dumpling water on medium and let it come to rapid boil.  By the time all the meat is done, the dumplings are ready to remove from the water.

I pulled the mushroom from the pan and put it in a cast iron skillet and fried it up to crisp the coating.  Everything worked well timing wise and we had a lovely dinner.  Last night I prepared the cookie dough for our dessert.  I opted for this crazy rich chocolate snowcap cookies.  I also found the recipe in the Eating Well magazine.  Funny they had a whole article on a German themed Thanksgiving meal.  I also found a kale salad recipe.  This morning I was busy half the morning baking cookies.  I should have halved the recipe, 4 dozen cookies is too much for just the two of us.

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The one thing I think I am proudest of is that I kept my kitchen clean.  This is not normal for me.  I was expecting a FaceTime call from my friends in Seattle and so I wanted to make sure the place was clean.  I kept all the dishes washed, and due to having limited resources I used them plenty.  All in all it was a very nice day.  We ended it with a walk along the river and a FaceTime call from friends.  I have the greatest people in my life.  My friend Johnny got a bit teary eyed and he said that he had never tried to Skype or FaceTime before, but it made him feel like we were right there.  I got a few calls through out the day from people who felt like I should be there. That is something to be truly grateful for!

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I shyly confess to liking Guy’s Grocery Games!


So I want to love the food network.  I really do, food shows all day every day, but I do not love it.  In fact the one show I really loved seems to have disappeared.  Jamie Oliver is one of my favorites.  His show Jamie in the Garden made me want to put a kitchen out in the middle of the woods and scrounge for components to make a meal.  Barefoot Contessa was one of the other shows that I liked.

What has happened to the Food Network?   Oh yeah, the same thing that happened to all other stations.  For some reason the staple go-to for this generation of television is reality shows!  Are you serious?  I really cannot stand to watch people pretend to not be acting in front of a camera.  Seriously your lives are so made up that I cannot believe people buy into the “reality” shit!

I must stop here for a moment to breathe.  As a vegetarian, I have really wanted at least one show, or one day focused on real vegetarian cuisine.  As much as I like Ina and Jamie, they are meat centric chefs.  Even Bobby Flay has great ideas, but again meat is the main idea.  Rachel Ray, god I really hate her, is nothing more than a box food commercial in drag!  Food Network should be about, food, like real food, plain simple and exotic ideas and not some corporate slogan.

One food host that absolutely grates my nerves is Guy Fieri.  He is loud and makes an ass of himself almost daily.  He eats the most disgusting things and promotes unhealthy food.  Yet, he has this game show that I love. Guy’s Grocery Games is a competition that pits 4 chefs against each other.  The competition is not what I like.  What I like is the fact that these chefs are given a challenge and given real life situations.  Things like limited resources, tight budgets and substitutions.  These challenges inspire creativity.  This is what I really love, the creativity of creating a meal from all frozen or canned foods.  Things that might be what you get from a food bank.  Granted, I am a fresh food cook, but once upon a time, I had to learn how to cook from the food bank.

Learning to cook from a food bank is really what developed my love of cooking.  When it becomes a challenge  to take a limited selection and create something delicious that your kids will eat, that is when I am most inspired.  The show “Chopped” once did a competition with things that would normally be thrown out, things like browning avocados and onion end.  To take these things and challenge ourselves to think outside the picnic basket is truly an inspiration.  Not everything turned out well, but I keep trying new ideas and I keep trying to figure out ways to eat well on the cheap, and that inspires me beyond imagination.

Kitchen hacks!


When I cook potatoes in oil I always end up using a ton of oil.  It takes forever and then I am left with an unhealthy side.  I realized that I could cut the potatoes up into the size and shape I want, toss  them in a covered bowl or dish with a lid and toss them in the oil first.  I then add my salt and seasoning spread the potatoes or other root veggies onto a baking sheet and bake them at 350 for about 25 minutes, depending upon how thick the pieces are.  This uses less oil, cooks more evenly and seasons better.  If you want them crispier, be sure to rotate the vegetable as they cook.  The sides touching the pan are the ones that get the crispiest.

Finding Normal in Chaos


My life has always been chaos.  I seem to do best in chaos.  In the last 2 years it has been more chaotic than ever.  Maybe the fact that the kids moved out and I gave up stability for adventure is the root cause.   Whatever the cause is not significant, how I function is. I am currently waiting to ship out again.  I now know how military couples feel when they are sent on missions.   Not that my life will be in the same amount of danger, but that separation anxiety and feeling of loss, I now understand it.

I always wanted to have a routine.  You know a schedule you can count on, but for some reason as much as I think I want it, I cannot function this way.  I need the crazy and unpredictable.  I thrive not so much in conflict, but in the moments leading up to conflict resolution.  In a routine, I feel lazy and uninspired.

Yesterday we picked up a cute little vintage table for the dining area.  Even though it is old and needs work, I love it.  It represents a time in my life when I was first faced with chaos.  My first apartment was a cute little studio that was furnished.  I hated it.  What I had not learned at that time was how to let things go.  I had boxes of old school work.  I kept every trinket ever given to me.  I had a collection of Breyer plastic horse models.  I toted those things around in 9 moves.  I finally put them in storage at my mom’s house.  My intention was to sell them, but my mom gave them away.  At first I was upset, but then I realized by being upset I was still a slave to things.  I had to learn to let it go.

Anyway, back to the table.  My studio had this old formica table with two vinyl chairs.  I had never seen anything so ugly in all my life.  When I moved into my first home, I was given a nice big oak table with 8 chairs.  I never really thought about that formica table again, until a few months ago.  When Richard and I moved in together it was like that first apartment all over again.  You see that apartment represented change and chaos and not knowing but still trying.  I moved to California with Richard and I had all those feelings again.  Not knowing, living in chaos, change and still trying were all seeping back into my life.  And I thought about that silly little table.  The one that I hated, and though it was not that I hated it, it was that it made me feel poor.  It was not my choice to have it in the apartment.  It was not my choice to live in such a small place with so much stuff.  Ok the so much stuff, that was my choice.

As I look back at my life, I realize that little ugly table meant I was on my own now.  The things in my world were now my very own.  The choices I made were made by me and not for me.  That little ugly table represented the freedom you feel when you move out of your parents home for the very first time.  And although I moved in with a bully of a boyfriend, we worked different shifts, so I was home alone much of the time and the place was truly mine.

So when we moved into our new place, I thought a nice table was needed.  But a wood table represented to me, stability and being trapped.  I wanted for the first time ever a chrome and formica table with vinyl chairs that rock and squeak.  I went online looking for such a table.  I found two.  One had 8 chairs and they wanted $400 for it.  What the crap am I going to do with 8 chairs?  The second one I found was perfect.  It is a grey and white marbled look.  It has 4 chairs, one with a rip and one with the handle on the back missing.  It also has a leaf to enlarge the table.  It fits perfect and she only wanted $200.  I offered her $175 and she took it, she probably would have taken $150.  I am not so great at bargaining.  I pulled the money from my account and we went to pick it up yesterday.

In the past two weeks, I have been really trying to focus on real food and cooking at home.  I have been menu planning and focusing on food portions.  Richard thinks this is silly, but in reality I have been wasting so much less food.  This is something I used to do when I was so broke I had to go to the food bank to feed my family. I am actually quite good at figuring out what to do with things to create a decent well-balanced meal on a shoestring budget.  As the holidays approach, I know we will not be entertaining, but having a table to eat upon is really nice.  It helps keep you focused on eating and not on the television.

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Last night we ate our first meal on our new table.  I found a recipe for scalloped potatoes and halved the recipe.  I also had shiitake mushrooms, leeks and green beans that needed to be used.  I sautéed those all together and set up a couple of plates at the table.  It was nice and very little left overs.  Ah, leftovers a blessing and a curse.  I have actually found a new art form in creating a new dish from leftovers.  I really would love to see restaurants be as creative with food waste as I have become.  If I cannot freeze something, I try to reincorporate it into a new dish.  Old rice mix becomes a soup base, along with pasta sauces and left over veggies.  Not all combinations are great, but all are edible. Last week I had this deliciously spicy tomato based soup for a couple of days at lunch.  I was sad when I finished it.

I guess in all my chaos, I have found a norm.  I love to be in a kitchen, but not a production kitchen.  I love to create dishes, modify recipes and I really miss throwing a dinner party.  I am hoping that the new neighborhood that can happen again.  I do thrive in chaos, but I need some things that feel normal.  Sitting and watching TV all day is not a norm I wish to thrive upon.  I need to buy some new paints and an easel and start painting and drawing again.  I need to figure out how to keep a budget in a kitchen again.  I used to feed myself and 3 teens for around $120 a month.  I could do so much better now.

Kitchen Makeover


I am a food snob! I am a kitchen snob! There I said it. I try to only buy organic or from a farmer’s market. I try to not use plastic as much as possible. I try not to buy box foods. I even used to make my own bread, but sadly when I got rid of everything I own the breadmaker was the first thing to go. I would love to take a pasta making class, but that is in the future.

As I pack my stuff to move, the kitchen is typically the last to get boxed. I have suffered so much in this apartment, that I made a decision today to take back my kitchen. I love to be in a kitchen. I love to cook, I love to chop, I love to sip coffee and look at magazines! In two weeks and two days we will be moving to a much more suitable location for us. One that I hope has a sense of community and neighbors who understand living in apartments.

Today I realized that I am missing a few major items in my kitchen. I have no measuring spoons or dry measuring cups. I got very excited to find bamboo measuring tools. I also bought one of those mesh strainers, of all the things I have had in my kitchen, I have never had one of these. I also found a very small mortar and pestle. Since I am cooking for just two it was perfect. Also those smaller tools are great for apartment kitchens.

Last week I bought a rice cooker, my first ever. Man this month is about firsts, I guess. I realized when I returned from Africa that I really missed my juicer, unfortunately part of the issue in this apartment is the noise fascist downstairs. I am terrified to operate my juicer or my blender. I am even hesitant to operate my vacuum. Oh how I look forward to reclaiming my kitchen and my life! The only thing I really need now is a kitchen scale, and maybe a new storage system for left overs. Otherwise I feel very confident that my kitchen is going to become my safe haven again.

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